Daydreams

I keep thinking about my kids... over and over and over and over again. I think about our first hug. I see it in my mind and imagine that embrace. It is not realistic. I know that my kids will be intimidated and scared during that first meeting. They may or may not choose to hug me. And if they do it won't be like what is in my head. In my head I practically tackle them out of pure joy. I'm pretty sure that would only serve to scare them. But I am going to enjoy these daydreams for now until I know more about our children-to-be.

Black Friday is coming and I would just LOVE to be able to shop for them... maybe next year. But there are some things which are generic enough that I can buy now. One idea I am excited about is those little key chain mini digital photo frames. The ones that are supposed to hold 50 photos. I have the idea of giving them to our kids on our first trip. We will meet them and then have to leave them for 1-2 months before we can go back and get them.

I'm sure there are so many things that I will be able to justify needing for our children-to-be during that pre-crack-of-dawn shopping event. But I have to remember not to go too crazy; We have to have some money left over to pay for all the adoption fees. (Someday after the fact I will write a post about what the costs were as that is common question. A question I had in the pre-paperwork days. But right now it involves alot of estimates.) Hehe. Maybe I will have to drag Josh along with me as my voice of reason!